Entries for July, 2005

July 9th, 2005

Happenings...

I am sitting right now, in front of our computer system, typing silly, nonsense words that wastes my precious internet time.

Oh, anyway, how’s everything? A lot of things already happened, but then I don’t really have to mention them all, do I have to? Nah, I might as well go on writing and writing until I have nothing more or less to say [rather type].

This week’s highlights…
[]>> Well, the last time I wrote something was about having our COAs. Uhm, there were improvements. I commend them for that. Yay! At least they’ve improved, rather than quitted!
[]>> Then, about my bhez and our 'friend', well, I’m having quite a problem with him. Oh, I’ll just tell you more later on.
[]>> Well, finally we passed our UP admissions forms. Yay! Finally all of us will take the UPCAT!
[]>> I’m also fixing now my application for other schools, name DLSU and UST since they’ve already released their forms.
[]>> And then, my good friend is not in real war with our co-officer just because of a joke that she never thought my friend would take personally against her. Durr! As if we’re that close and know each other well to pull such jokes related to an open secret! Double durr!
[]>> Oh well, I’m playing tennis later on. Ho-hum.
[]>> And then I love these three guys that gave birth to a funny group that will lighten up our ACP days—Boriquitos Mosquitos!
[]>> Well, our country’s economy is at stake just because of PGMA. Damn! Like what my THE teacher told us, it really doesn’t matter whether PGMA is guilty or not of cheating the elections, whether she’ll go down or what, just hurry up finishing all these hearings and investigations so that they can once again focus their attention into our falling economy.
[]>> Chismax: The new stud is about to get the position which is so damn unfair!
[]>> More and more Filipinos are migrating to Canada and other prosperous country.
[]>> EVAT will just cause more poverty in our country! Why should add more taxes just to pay our debt to World Bank? Aren’t we paying our taxes for the progress, improvement and beautification of our country, and also to pay our four trillion dollar debt to World Bank? Or are we just feeding the greediness of our politicians?!
[]>> I heard there’ll be a “College Night” happening tonight in school. Durr! Their location must be in one of the cubicles of our washroom! Haha!
[]>> Today’s the opening of the 68th UAAP! Adamson Univ is this year’s host.
[]>> Oh, we a have a new crush… durr! Though we just noticed that he’s like a beggar because of his get-up. Haha!
[]>> Then, I really love our sisterhood! Haha! We’ve been together since sophomore years and we’ve been through lots of things and trials already! I remember vividly how Jenelle and I used to fight over things ‘cause we just don’t click! But now, we just understood why and how we react to things and respect one another for such acts! I’m so glad that we never gave up on one another! I really thought we can never be this close!
[]>> We also had a lesson in our Religion [Values Education] class about left-brain dominant and right-brain dominant. Obviously, I’m a left-brained while my good friend Coleen is right. We knew that already just by observing how we talk and debate things over. She tells how she feels about things, while I tell how I analyze them. And that’s why our ideas don’t usually go together! But even though, I’m glad we’re opposites so that we’d learn from one another! Haha! In the report, they said that left-brain dominants mingle with like interests. But not with me, ‘cause I have a good relationship with my right-brain dominated friends—for them to remind me that I’m human too, that I have emotions too! Yeah!
[]>> And then, they said left-brain dominants can’t be hypnotized—not TJ huh! Haha!
[]>> I remember Coleen told me that none of whatever she said is wrong. I agree with her. ‘Cause not everything she said is right too! Just to balance her statement. Hehe.
[]>> I realized that I must’ve looked very stupid having a crush on a young boy whose personality is obviously not that appealing to me! Damn! Good thing someone came with a better personality which I can compare.
[]>> I wish Maxine would be the first assistant of Coleen. And by the way, Coleen did a good job handling her position and creating a nice reputation for her position—which attracted COAs to succeed her!
[]>> Well, I just thought of serving in Kids For Christ [KFC] since Maxine mentioned it to us. I just might get myself a position! Haha! But really, I just wanna go do something worthwhile—I wanna serve first and foremost rather than get such positions!
[]>> Yesterday’s Miting de Avance was successful. The Sky party proved their popularity in service without experience with how the crowd or students shouted for their party. Yey! On the other hand, their opposition, One, is an “all brains” party which is I believe is not that appealing to us, voters.
[]>> Me and my good friend got pissed off with how some people reacted upon knowing that they were the editors in our school paper. Oh! I never even realized that we still have a school a paper—that it existed even after Cantero’s disappearance!
[]>> Uhm, I don’t know what the future holds for our school paper. Durr!
[]>> The first monthly test is coming soon and I was supposed to study right now but then I forgot to bring my notes with me! Hehe!
[]>> UPCAT is fast approaching too! Yay!

Oh well, that’s all that happened this week. Many huh? Not yet! I don’t think that those are even half of whatever happened this first busy week of July! Wah!

Anyway, last night I remembered I was texting our ‘friend’. He was asking me help with my bhez and I was giving opinions and all that [take note: opinions and not advices!]. I was telling him that he can love her without irking her with his question ‘can you love me?’. And now, just this afternoon, he texted me that I’m right, that he might as well get out of her life so he said goodbye already to my bhez. Durr! Like I believe it! Whether it’s true or not, it’s really no big deal to me! My bhez also texted me this morning, confirming me that she’s so pissed off him already! Durr! Gusto ko na nga sabihin kay bhez na diretsuhin na nya ng masakit na “so what?” kapag nag-I love you na naman sa kanya eh! And then of course, I would add to that: masakit ba? Kung gaano kasakit para sa’yo na malaman yan, gano’n din kasakit sa’kin na ipaalam yan sa’yo!

Now, I agree with him when he told me that he was dumb [makitid daw ulo niya!] to realize things and blah blah. If I were my bhez, I can easily let go of someone like him. In the past weeks, I remember telling my bhez, “sabihin mo na lang kasi na hindi mo pa talaga gusto magkaron na bf—hindi mo sya gusting sagutin di dahil ayaw mo sa kanya pero dahil ayaw mo lang talaga magkaron ng bf.” Durr!

Oh sige alis na’ko dahil magte-tennis pa ako! Wahehe!
mood sing-y! :P
listen Before I Fall In Love by Coco Lee
read textbooks
watch Star Sports

yahn @ 03:06 PM [2 comment/s]

July 15th, 2005

Attention: Friends!

Hi there friends! Yeah, friends! As in mga tol ko jan! Alam nyo na ba ang latest chika? Ano? Hindi pa?!?!?!?!?! Aba, let me tell you the big secret! Bwahaha!

Hindi ba ninyo nalalalaman?? Mahal na mahal ko kayo! As in I LOVE YOU ALL GUYS! MAHAL NA MAHAL KO BROTHERS AND SISTERS KO! At sino nga ba sila?!?! Ano?!?! Hindi niyo kilala mga sarili ninyo?!?! Ano ba naman yan!

Hay nako, ever since senior life had started, kasama ko na kayo no! Mapa good trip o bad trip, food trip or ka-tripan, basta sa lahat! Teka, hindi lang pala nung senior ano?! Since high school! Kahit nga nung gradeschool eh! Pero syempre, the best pa rin ang senior, di ba mga tol??

Alam niyo kung bakit? Kasi dito na tayo tumibay eh, di ba? After all these years, napakarami na nating napagdaanan. At personally, akala ko matapos ang trials na yon eh hanggang dun na nga lang ang friendship natin.

But I was wrong. I was completely wrong! Damn! Hindi ko akalaing may mas hihigit pa sa mga napagdaanan natin. Hay nako tol! Ang dami kong gustong sabihin! Ano ba naman yan! Kanina lang nagMcdo tayo, tapos maya-maya uwian na! Hay! Ang bilis talaga ng panahon ano? Tulad nga ng nasabi ko na lang kay Coleen, “Ano ba naman yan? Tuwing may magandang usapan may isang taong nabibitin eh! Last week ikaw! Ngayon, ako naman! My goodness!”

Hay, I’m getting more emotional than ever. That’s the effect of becoming too emotional. Masyadong maraming gustong sabihin na hindi matuloy-tuloy sabihin! Tulad na lang ngayon, sa sobrang emotion, ang nasabi ko na lang ay

MAHAL NA MAHAL KO KAYO MGA TOL!

In English

I LOVE YOU GUYS!

Kaya nga ang quotation ko para sa atin ay walang iba kung hindi

In SISTERHOOD and BROTHERHOOD, WALANG IWANAN MGA TOL!

Bwahaha!

Anyway, iisa-isahin ko na kayo! Bwahahaha!

Maxine tol! Uy, ang gwapo natin pre! Alam mo bang masaya talaga ako at nakilala kita? Shux tol! Nababakla na tayo! Haha! Hindi ko lubos akalaing lalalim ng ganito ang pagkakaibigan natin. Naalala ko tuloy yung araw na binigyan kita ng letter. Tandang tanda ko christmas yon. Pero hindi ko talaga lubos maalala kung anong taon yon! Ulyanin! Naging open ako sa’yo. Natakot pa nga ako eh kasi baka lalo lang lumaki ang gap between us. But i was so damn wrong! Ngayon ko na-appreciate ng husto ang sulat kong iyon. Nagpapasalamat ako at naintindihan mo ako—nagkaintindihan tayo! Hindi mo minasama ang sulat ko—kasi nga in the first place eh may prejudice na ako about you. Thanks for considering me a real friend. Damn! Wahehe! Naalala ko pa noon, ngayon ko lang actually narealize na naihalintulad pala kita kay verbose. Durr! Pero iba ka sa kanya! Siguro nga nasa dugo ninyo na ang pagkamadaldal, pero tunay kang kaibigan eh! Hinding hindi ka pwedeng maihalintulad sa kanya! Hindi ka sumisira ng tiwala! Ganun ka tol! Hay, buhay nga naman. Ang bilis nga panahon no? Naalala ko rin nung nag-away kayo ng ex-bes mo. Akala ko talaga hanggang dun na lang ang FUXHT. Pero hindi. Mas maganda pa ang labas lalo’t higit eh wala na tayong obligasyon sa isa’t isa dahil tropahan! Naging intentional ang pagkakaibigan natin! Bukas sa puso natin na maghintayan, magkopyahan, magkurutan, magpagandahan, magpacutean, magpaliitan at lakihan, magpagalingan—all for fun and not just for competition! Narealize ko na naman na tanggap natin ang kahinaan at strengths ng bawat isa! Narealize ko talaga na hindi kita kakumpitensya sa anu mang bagay MM! Dahil nga sa magkaiba tayo ng karerang tinatakbuhan! Oh di ba astig na ang nasabi ko?! Bwahaha! Kaya, ayun tol. Nababakla ako. I LOVE YOU TOL! LOVE YOU MM! MWAH! HAHA!

Hoy Coleen! Baklita! Isa ka pa! Alam mo bang napakasarap mong kausap? Hay nako! Ang bilis ng panahon pero napakarami na natin agad na napagdaanan! Alam mo bang noon eh hindi talaga kita type kausap?!?! But now, it really doesn’t matter, isn’t it? Kasi sa totoo lang, hindi kita nagustuhang kausap kasi napakadalas magkasalungat ng mga kaisipan natin. Pero simula ng mga dates natin sa McDo, dagdag pa ang lesson sa religion about right and left brains, napagtanto kong hindi ko kailangang makipagaway sa kaisipan mo! Okay lang siguro ang debate! Pero respetuhan ng ideya tol! Nirespeto mo kung anong naisip ko at nirespeto ko anu mang nasabi mo. Akala ko habang buhay na kita hindi makakausap dahil sa prejudice ko. Pero hindi. Nagkamali na naman ako. Marami rin akong natutunan sa yo tol! Nagpagtanto ko rin na pwede tayong matuto sa isa’t isa! Tama ka sa sinabi mo na wala ka ngang sinasabing mali! Pero hindi rin naman lahat ay tama! Just to balance the statement! Wahehehe! Baklita! I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH!

Jenelle! Uy! Ano ba yan?! Kung saan saan ka napapadpad. Hay. Ang bilis ng panahon ano? Parang kelan lang eh baka hindi tayo madalas magaway at magtarayan! Naalala ko ang mga panahong yon. Akala ko rin hindi talaga kita magiging kaibigan. Biruin mo ba naman, maya’t maya ang tampuhan natin! Syempre malakas na babae ka kaya hindi ka magsosori dahil wala ka nga namang kasalanan, samantalang mautak at palaisip naman ako kaya hindi ako nagsosori dahil sa sarili ko alam kong wala akong dapat ipagsori. Hay nako! Kahit sino pang unang pumansin sa ating dalawa, buti na lang nagpansinan tayo! Hindi ako nagpapasalamat na nagaway kayo ng exbes mo kaya lalo tayong napalapit sa isa’t isa. Isa lang iyon sa pagkarami-rami nating trial. Pero mas masaya ako ngayon lalo’t higit narealize ko na nalampasan natin ang lahat ng iyon, at ngayon ay tumibay at tumagal tayo ng ganito! Lumalim pa kapatiran natin oh diba! Bwahaha! Nagkamali na naman ako sa prejudice ko. Akala ko talaga hindi na tayo magkakasundo kahit kailan. Pero ngayon, napatunayan ko ng husto sa sarili ko ang katapatan mo bilang tunay na kaibigan! Astig ka tol! Lakas mo! MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA TOL!

Ayun lang... ay, hindi ba?! Nako! Oo lima nga pala kami! At higit sa lahat, sa BHEZ JANYN KO! Grade four pa lang. Hay nako. Nagkahiwalay ng konti nung grade five at six. Buti nagkita ulit nung first year. Hay. Masaya ako naging magkaibigan tayo. Alam mo bhez? Ngayon ko lang napansing opposites pala talaga tayo! As in! Ay, binabawi ko! Hindi naman as in pero opposites talaga tayo! Isa na dun ay left brained ako at right ka naman. Prangka at madaldal ka, samantalang napakatahimik ko. Malakas na babae ka [in some way! Durr!] samantalang may pagkakimi ako. Ay, mali ulit! Binabawi ko na naman! Magkabaligtad siguro tayo ng strengths and weaknesses. Magkaiba rin tayo ng interes bhez! Pero, ano naman diba? It really doesn’t matter at all! None of would’ve mattered at all anyway! I can now clearly see our differences positively. Dati, akala ko na naman mapuputol ang bestfriendship. Pero hindi! Ano ba lagi na lang akong nagkakamali! Bwahaha! Sa halip, bumalik, lumalim, lumawak, at higit sa lahat gumanda na naman ang friendship natin! And sa tropahan, hindi lang basta-basta friendship to! SISTERHOOD and BROTHERHOOD to bhez! Haha! Kaya, ito na lang masasabi ko: MAHAL NA MAHAL PO KITA BHEZ! LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH BHEZ!

Sa lahat ng ito, kung kapansin-pansing lagi nga akong nagkakamali dahil sa akala [syempre, meron ba namang maling akala?!]. Sa isang bagay lang naman siguro ako tumama eh! At masaya ako sa tamang iyon! Hindi ako nagkamaling tanggapin kayo bilang mga kaibigan ko! Pero higit pa doon, hindi ako ang pumili sa inyo! KAYO MISMO RIN ANG PUMILI SA AKIN, KAYA SALAMAT MGA TOL! In sisterhood and brotherhood nga, walang iwanan! Haha!

So, ayun. Fourth year na tayo. Seniors na tayo. Nakakalungkot, but everything has an ending di ba? Ano to, til death do us part guys ba? Oh til boys do us part? Bwahaha! Sa mahigit isang buwan nating pagsasamahan, meron na agad akong mamimiss o meron na agad kayong maiiwang alaala sa akin. Unahin na natin si Maxine. Beggar kasi ka eh! Kaya mamimiss ko ang tambay at usapan natin tuwing Wednesday sa car park. Nagsimula isang araw nang umulan at nagkaroon ng napakahabang traffic. Salamat sa ulan! Haha! Sana ganito na lang palagi ano? Kay Coleen naman, mas mayaman to! Ka-date ko lagi sa McDo, lalo’t higit pag trip na trip kumain dun! Ang sched naman eh Tue. Nagsimula rin sa yayaan. Masaya ako tuwing naguusap tayo! Mamimiss ko mga kurni jokes mo! Bwahaha! Mamimiss ko ang love talks natin! Kasi naman! Sa inyong apat, ikaw lang ang talaga namang pinakaemotional kong kausap! Walang date ata natin ang lumampas na hindi natin matotouch ang topic of love. Hay, love nga naman! So complicated! It’s really not to be understood, it’s to be felt isn’t it! Yeah! Jenelle? Dyan ka pa ba? Eto naman, siguro nga wala kaming sched. Pero isa rin to sa mga pinakamakulit kong nakasama eh! Dito ako natuto ng mga katripang vandal, batuhan, awayan, angasan, bisyo at sugal! Lahat ng uri ng katripan! Pero higit sa lahat, natuto ako sa kanya maging malakas in a different way. Malakas naman ako kahit wala sya eh. Pero lalo lang niya akong pinalakas at nagpapasalamat ako! Mamimiss ko ang lahat ng katripan natin! Food trip, laugh trip, barkada trip, cutting, vandal, cheating, sugal [pero hindi ako pumusta ever!], brotherhood lalo’t higit sa ACP, pagdadala kay W__ sa buhay ko [even though ngayon talaga eh hindi ko na sya ganun ka-crush—kasi focused ako ngayon sa studies! Yeah!], confidence na humarap kay Sir Cruz [sa paghatak sa’kin na lumabas tayo’t magpapansin sa officers kahit pareho tayong kinakabahan! Haha!], sa iyakan at tawanan, lalo’t higit sa panloloko [sa’yo ko natutong magloko tol!] pati na rin mga ka-hyper-an! Haha! Thanks Jenelle! Kay bhez?? Hay nako, sya lang naman eh combination ng lahat ng tropa ko! Haha! Pero sa totoo lang, espesyal si bhez Janyn sa life ko. Malakas na babae rin yan in some way eh. In some indirect way, maybe, eh napalakas ako nyan! Masaya ako’t napili natin ang isa’t isa bilang best friends! It’s no longer about the obligation tol! Pero sabi mo nga di ba, lahat tayo magbebest friends—este more than that! Kapatiran tayo tol! Love you bhez!!

Hay, wala na akong masabi eh! Nonsense na ata tong 4-page essay-letter ko ah! Hay nako! Ang bilis naman talaga kasi ng panahon. But anyway, it won’t pass us by just like that! Marami pang darating, alam ko! Kaya ayun!

Sigeh... hanggang dito nalang tol! Uulitin ko

IN SISTERHOOD AND BROTHERHOOD, WALANG IWANAN!

I LOVE YOU GUYS!

~yahn YON eh!
mood grateful
listen Thanks To YOU! LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH GUYS!! :-P

yahn @ 08:16 PM [2 comment/s]

July 23rd, 2005

YFC Gathering

Hay! It's been a very long day for me today! Ahhh! I'm quite exhausted! But still, I've got some energy for today's little party--or more of a gathering ['cause of my dad's upcoming birthday]--for my dad that started even before I left our little sweet home this afternoon. It rained so hard this afternoon, about 1pm, that I thought today's activity would be a total mess or unsuccessful. But I was so damn wrong! Proves that God is really good all the time! There'll always be a positive side for everything that occurs--reality is always better than dreams! Haha!

Anyway, today I attended my first chapter gathering. There has been a YFC gathering every week since we joined! I didn't realize that they meet very often! I thought they met only twice in a year--that is every Youth Camp! Haha! But, boy, I was sure wrong! I never thought that I could meet more people in meetings and gatherings like this rather than just attending the yearly Youth Camp! Haha!

And whatever did we do in such gathering? Well, of course, we gathered together and praised, worshipped, and glorified Him who made us and made all things possible [hindi Globe ha! ]. That's the main purpose of joining YFC anyway, isn't it? Then, unlike in Youth Camp, no more talks. Just sharing and reflection. We didn't literally reflect, but we did learn from one another just by sharing. Sharing was our reflection already.

We talked about standing up for Jesus. It asked: would you stand up for Jesus? First, we heard a bible story from the book of Daniel to get a better picture of this question. The story narrated Daniel, a faithful and trustworthy gov't leader. His political enemies were envy of his power and success. When they couldn't see any wrong in him so as to sue him, they used his undying faith for God to bait him. They asked the king to sign a decree stating that for at least thirty days, no one will worship any god except him, anyone who will disregard this rule will be thrown in the lion's cage. The king signed it, and as planned, the enemies of Daniel spied on him and reported to the king how he had kept his faith with God in praying thrice daily. The king didn't want to punish Daniel because of his goodness, but then there has been a rule so he ordered them to throw him in the lion's den. But before that, he said to Daniel, "May you be guided by the one you worship."

After that, my good friend Coleen said, "Nagdasal din naman sya." She had a point there. The king himself had faith in God too! Haha! Funny how people can say they don't need God, but deep inside are really faithful in Him.

Well, anyway, we were grouped at nakahiwa-hiwalay kami nina Coleen at bhez. Guide questions for our reflection and sharing were asked. Are we good witnesses of Jesus at home? Do we still respect and obey our parents? Coleen, again, commented, "Oo sumusunod, pero may halong inis." It's typical. It's like telling that yes we do obey orders, only we lack the respect. Are we good examples to our friends and at school? Minsan nga ako pa naghahatak sa kanilang gumawa ng kalokohan eh! At syempre, minsan ako naman nahahatak nila. But I am fully aware that I don't give in to peer pressure, that I don't have originality and easily give in to them just because they wanted to. I do things according to my own will--I do them if and only if I, myself, along want to so. I don't always follow orders from someone I am faithless of. I do them, and obey orders, because I feel doing them and I WANT so.

Are we still cheating during exams? I did, and everyone else got through the same thing in highschool. Ate Ravene said that cheating is hard to do in college. Yeah, I guess so 'cause it's preparation for the real world. I mean, in real world, would copying still equate to high grade? Nah.

I remember how Tallyn, Rhea, and ate Ravene talked about UP. Sororities and frats were common. They had their orgs and I can say that one of them is a part of a sorority group. I don't see any proof of hazing but I still believe that may pahirapan pa rin sila. Not maybe in a physical way, but in a more practical way I guess. They were telling stories of philosophy professors who are atheist and pagan blockmates. And Rhea was right saying that when we meet such people who have different or opposite of our beliefs, we should just let them be, respect their faith and hold on to ours. We should be open to such things so as also to test our faith. In the end, no matter how much knowledge we gain, what matters most is that we'd still and always turn back to God. I believe that in knowing these people and beliefs would be when our faith best measured. Don't you think?

And now, I had a glimpse that I might as well go in to a non-Catholic school instead to Catholic ones like UST, DLSU, ADMU so as to open my mind and be more aware of the truth. Haha!

Anyway, the rest were some kind of nonsense already. Well, our session ended there, we had our closing prayer and ate some merienda, then we talked for hours about nothing--like Tallyn's jokes! Haha! And then, we went to Boodie's house and bid them goodbye [awwww ] and lastly to Jenny's.

And now, I'm looking forward for the next gathering 'cause I found it interesting--learning new things, meeting people, and sharing ideas and experiences. Also in going to UP. I'm glad for everything that happened today. Amen to that!
mood glad
listen To The Ends Of The Earth
read Chicken Soup for the Soul
watch Freaky Friday

yahn @ 08:59 PM | Book Of The Yahn [2 comment/s]