Entries for March, 2006
March 1st, 2006
Not Quite Really...
Yes. I'm not quite real sure of writing this one. And, naturally, I am not also quite sure of what I am writing. Am I making sense or what?Really, if you ask me, I don't really have an idea what I should and shouldn't do. Basically, I spend much of my time now lazying around. Unbelievable. No wonder I get fatter and fatter by the minute. Other than that, my mind is right now battling whether I continue this or not. My mind tells me deliberately that I'm not much in the mood for some typing, and so it leads me to the belief that this would not make any sense. What do you say?
On the other hand, my mind also tells me I'd like to update. So what if I'm not really in such mood? I can deliberately write almost anything under sun. Why? Mainly because I own this spot. No one can ever tell what to write. I need nobody botherin' me and askin' me to write because I should. Nah, I don't need such.
Oh fuck. Anyway. So today's Ash Wednesday for us Catholics. Oh fuck still. Just recently, an earthquake hit our place. As usual, it wasn't that strong, but it still frightened us all in here. I was using the computer then [but I wasn't typing this one yet, I was doing a project--can you believe it?!] which was up stairs, and then the fast earthquake hit us. It was just like something underneath that was so big passed by us. In such place, no wonder I felt it. Not just felt it actually, I moved with the earthquake itself! Damn! I should say this is the second time I experienced an earthquake. Last time, well, I was in exactly the same place doing the same thing for the same purpose. I'm just too glad and relived that I'm still here--and I survived another one. Thank goodness! Whoa!
Well, oh fuck again. Finals are coming up. Damn haven't opened any notes yet. We even had a fuckin' quiz in Math earlier today, and it was so hard for me! Not to mention that fuckin' defense we had in Physics all day! Oh fuck really.
So, stop the crap now. Have I told you? I have something against people who bad mouth or say bad words in their blogs. In my opinion, such blogs containing such explicit words are dumb and senseless. Well, I guess the same goes for my blog huh? Hmmm, it's only for today right? Oh fuckin' yeah.
Also, I notice myself getting more and more used in speaking in such foul language--though at least in a classy, English way. Yet, it's all the same, right? The same bad words, same in meaning, same in sound and tone--only different languages. Damn it. I just thought that getting hooked in such foul words help me release unspeakable emotions bottled inside. Whatever. As long as I don't sound too bold or liberated or poor. Duh.
In our classroom, MM started a new group. She and Darlene actually started it by bullying Keso. The group's name was initially The League of the Bleeding Nose. But now, after that fuckin' Physics defense/thesis/whatever, we now call our group:
The Leage of the Nose-Bleeding Graces Under Pressure
The bleeding nose idea was basically to point out our effort in speaking the English language. There's this expression in Tagalog that goes: dumudugo na ilong mo!, which means that you're having a hard time understanding and expessing yourself in English. Anyway, so the two bullies were taunting a creature in English--that's how all exactly started. Then we started speaking in English in some times. Then after that thesis, we had our powers. Cool? Childish? Right! So I had telekinetic powers, one can fly, another can stop time, and so on and so forth. We were ten in the group. Hahaha.
Before I forget, I'd like to add here my currently favored song.
Huling El Bimbo
Eraserheads
Kamukha mo si Paraluman
Nung tayo ay bata pa
At ang galing-galing mong sumayaw
Mapa-boogie man o cha-cha
Ngunit ang paborito
Ay ang pagsayaw mo ng El Bimbo
Nakakaindak, nakakaaliw
Nakakatindig balahibo
Pagkagaling sa skwela ay didiretso na sa inyo
At buong maghapon ay tinuturuan mo ako...
Magkahawak ang ating kamay
At walang kamalay-malay
Na tinuruan mo ang pusong ito
Na umibig ng tunay
Naninigas ang aking katawan
Pag umikot na ang plaka
Patay sa kembot ng baywang mo
At pungay ng 'yong mga mata
Lumiliwanag ang buhay
Habang tayo'y magkaakbay
At dahan-dahang dumudulas
Ang kamay ko sa makinis mong braso
Sana noon pa man ay sinabi na sa iyo
Kahit hindi na uso ay ito lang ang alam ko...
Magkahawak ang ating kamay
At walang kamalay-malay
Na tinuruan mo ang pusong ito
Na umibig ng tunay
Lalalala... lala... lalalalala
Lumipas ang maraming taon
Di na tayo nagkita
Balita ko'y may anak ka na
Ngunit walang asawa
Taga-hugas ka raw ng pinggan sa may Ermita
At isang gabi, nasagasaan
Sa isang madilim na eskinita...
Lahat ng pangarap ko'y bigla lang natunaw
Sa panaginip na lang pala kita maisasayaw...
Magkahawak ang ating kamay
At walang kamalay-malay
Na tinuruan mo ang pusong ito
Na umibig ng tunay
Lalalala... lala... lalalalala...
To end this crap, though, here's some joke to lighten you up.
PS: So pissed off!!! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THEM?!
listen Sugarfree's Tikman
read none, not in the mood :o
watch Lovers in Paris girl in her new Koreanovela
yahn @ 08:28 PM | Book Of The Yahn [2 comment/s]
March 3rd, 2006
Dreams Come True [It Just Won't Sink In!]
So, dreams DO come true for me. Hehe. ^^, [It just won't sink in! XD]Taken from my January 1, 2006 post:
Particularly, on my birthday, I wish:Officially as of March 3, 2006, I passed the Entrance Exams of:
1.to hear mass once again with my family--it has been quite a while since my own dad heard mass with us
2.books!--I collect 'em, and also read them of course;
3.well, quality time with friends--I wanna go just watch movie and eat lots of junk foods with my homies
4.perhaps to pass all the entrance tests I took.
1. De La Salle University
2. Ateneo de Manila University
3. University of Sto. Tomas
4. University of the Philippines
Apart from that, I finally got that spot in ACP that I've been wishing for. I never thought I could still land that spot--even for just one day in only one ceremony. Pam chose me as AG 5. Haha! Don't want to further explain and go in to details. I don't think you'll understand anyway. And besides, this one sure doesn't sink in, too!
PS: I may sound arrogantly haughty, but let me remind you: this is my blog. If you find my words rather offending, better f*** off!
mood :jester:
listen Eraserhead's Huling El Bimbo
yahn @ 05:34 PM | Book Of The Yahn [11 comment/s]
March 6th, 2006
March - The End?
...Already???Hay. What do you know? I'm kind of bored and can't think of a catchy title that'll suit this post. By the way, what's this post all about? I don't know. We'll see. After reading. XD
Anyway, this week is *hell* week. Finals. Today until Wednesday. And what else do you know? I'm not in the mood to study! Wah!
(Dilemma)
[break=Congrats, Kathleen!]Enough of such crap. Anyway, yesterday was Bb. Pilipinas pageant. Awesome! I saw this girl who looked just like a friend of my sister back in high school, and poof! She won! The following morning, I spread the news in this little crib, shouting:
Ma! Nanalo si [insert name of my sis' friend]!
She won Bb. Pilipinas-Ms. World. She is beautiful when she smiles, and she's witty as well.
Judge: What would you do first thing in the morning as Bb. Pilipinas, in case you win?The same goes for Bb. Pilipinas-Ms. Universe. She got so much award so no wonder she's a surefire winner. Though she didn't have the chance to answer well 'cause of a not-so-good question. It was quite nonsense that nobody would want to know its answer. Duh!
Ms. Anna Maris Igpit: I would go to church and praise the Lord and thank Him.
Anyhow, as for the pride of the country and my beloved alma mater, Ms. Precious Lara Quigaman, well she took her final bow together with Carleen Aguilar and another one, not so beautiful as the two. Her successor? I don't expect her to win. I don't find her pretty and witty. Ugh.
But then again, I wish all of them luck! Go girls!
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Behind every successful woman is a man disappointed.
mood confused
listen Eraserhead's Toyang
watch Bring It On Again!
yahn @ 07:47 PM | Book Of The Yahn [8 comment/s]
March 9th, 2006
2nd Week of March - Gettin' Warmed Up
Our finals are finally over. Thank goodness! Hell Days are over--this only means one thing: HEAVEN WEEK!Shoppin' With My Ladies
OMG! Yesterday, I went shoppin' with Fuxht. We had sooo much fun! Though we didn't get to watch any movie mainly because, as usual, we were broke. Well, Coleen and Jenelle were. Still, we had so much fun!
At first, Jenelle couldn't really come. She was real broke because the money she just saved was intentionally for her Globe load. She had so many textmates that she felt the need to reply to all of them after hell week. Anyway, the rest of the nose-bleeding gang were also in the way as they also had a cheaper kind of fun by playing and eating at Shey's place. We persisted that Jenelle go with us 'cause it is a reunion for the Fuxht and it would really hurt us [bola!] if she was missin'. I don't know why, but I just had the feelin' that Jenelle simply wanted us to force her though she is already givin' in to our request.
Anyway, Maxine and I succeeded in dragging Jenelle with us to the newly opened SM Sta. Rosa. Good! Now that Robinson's is sure to close down! Hahaha! As I was saying, the whole Fuxht gang went to SM. We ate lunch at the Food Court, and were disappointed by the tasteless foods they served us! So, instead of eating, we simply entertained ourselves with Rex Navarette's joke! Hahahaha!
Afterwards, we went shopping! We didn't find cheap but nice summer clothes, yet we found ourselves super cool shades for the summer season! Yipee! Then after two hours of rummaging through Sm Dept Store's li'l shades stand, we got out and decided to unwind in Gonuts Donuts. As we went there, two maniacs followed us whom Bhez sensed immediately that resulted to our safe escape from them. After eating the really sweet donuts, I invited them to Nat'l Bookstore 'cause I needed a photo album for my pics, and Jenelle answered me:
Bakit pa, tol? Di na kailangan! Graduate na tayo eh!
Hahaha! Yes! It's true and it's been proven! We are free! We're finally rid of all those pesky assignments that came crashing into our frail, sexy bodies last week! Thank God!
Anyhow, I unfortunately didn't find the nice, thick photo album that I wanted badly. We then went to the Booksale found in the other end of the mall [Read: TORTURE!]. I still didn't buy anything, but at least I'm glad that Bhez found a good priced, useful and handy dictionary and thesaurus.
Oh, before going to Nat'l, we went first to Fujifilm and had pictures taken. Cool! I'll show them some other time once they're scanned.
Finally, we went back to Fujifilm to claim what were rightfully ours. Unfortunately, the pictures were still being edited when we got there, so I decided to hunt for that nice photo album once again. And, luckily for me, I found it. Though expensive, it was worth every single peso I paid for it.
We got back and the pictures were already printed! We rode the jeepney to Olivarez past 7pm, and I came home eight in the eve. So tired, but so damn happy! XD
mood :apple:
listen My UltraElectroMagneticJam CD
read Archie's Comics
yahn @ 05:58 PM | Book Of The Yahn [4 comment/s]
March 18th, 2006
Some Things...
...are meant to confuse people. ~YahnGod, I can't believe how fast graduation is approaching! Ugh! Last night I watched Roxie of PBB voluntarily exit Kuya's house just to attend her graduation. And man, I should say I salute her for making the right decision! If she ever found PBB more important than her studies, she must be out of her mind and surely everybody would've despised her! But before she made her big decision, the crew made a survey first among the ordinary about Roxie's big decision. The crew showed equal number of interviewees on both choices. Though, when asked why, the ones who chose graduation were more reasonable than the ones who chose PBB for lame excuses. Other than that, I must also say that choosing between graduation and PBB is like choosing between a diploma that you can be proud of, and money that won't last forever. It's quite easier to choose looking at it that way.
(*cough* *cough* *cough*)
[break=Resume]On the other hand, besides the above mentioned *cough* fact that should've quite made my heart jump for joy--'cause really I've been hoping for something like this
--I'm still sad. I've been in this state of dilemma for too long, don't you think? I won't stay this way. Soon, I'm bound to find the answers to my big question. And I mean REALLY SOON. Where am I off to after grad?As the days pass by, I'm beginning to see the light I should've seen long ago. The more days I waste thinking of that distant future, the lesser days I have to prepare for that day of confirmation. I can't believe that in four short weeks, I'm about to decide where I'll be spending five years of my college life. Will it be here in Laguna, or there in Manila? Is it gonna be Los Baños, or Quezon?
The more I think about these two options of mine, the clearer I realize the idea that none of these prestigious universities will ever matter in the long run. Only my performance in the future board exam can make me... or break me.
And now, as my options are eliminated in two, which are UPLB and ADMU, I'm now faced with lesser, but heavier, reasons for studying in both univ. One is cheap, guarantees quality education--but requires me to shift. The second is my choice [which is quite IMPORTANT, I guess], can guarantee quality education as well--yet too expensive for my folks.
Now look at what the heck my mind's been up to these past few days after all this horrible decision making. I just thought about what my future resumes gonna look like--a kind of goal for me, you know!
Name: Yahn [or so I call myselfYa see? Where the f*** is that school?
Educational Background
School: ________?__________
Degree: Bachelor of Science in Electronics and Communications Engineering
Date of Graduation: __ March, 2011
BS ECE Board Exam Results [whatever!]
Date Taken: __ September[?], 2011
Percentile Score: ??
Rank: 7th
Whatever my WISE decision may be, hopefully it would turn out to be the BEST in the long run. And hopefully, things turn out fine for me. Wish me luck!
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Wisdom Wizards '06: Signing Off [";]
mood sick X(
listen Eraserheads songs
read Archie's Comics
yahn @ 11:38 AM | Book Of The Yahn [2 comment/s]
March 19th, 2006
Headliners
God damn PT&T! First, they disabled our outgoing NDD calls [of course including IDD!]. And just now, my phone talk with Bhez has been cut off! Ugh! Thank goodness mom's finally decided to connect to Digitel instead!Anyway, here are the recent headlines that boggled the minds of the Filipinos all over the world for the past couple of days.
(Dinky Soliman vs. GMA)
[break=Tsunami Again?]Tidal Wave ni Batangas?
It has been reported lately by GMA's early morning show, Unang Hirit, that a tsunami [tidal wave] is going to hit the town of Batangas [Even our relatives in Batangas were alarmed!
]. Personally, I saw on QTV, the other network of GMA, that the rumor started with an old man who counted thirteen days since some freaky accident [which I don't the heck know which one it was supposed to be!]. He was a poor, lonely stranger who came across some homes in the said province, and asked water there 'cause he claimed he was thirsty, afterwhich he warned his hosts that a tsunami will break out--exactly same that occured in South East Asia and India. Hahaha! As if there's any truth to this! First, there was no earthquake. Second, the announcement wasn't verified by PHILVOLCS [bad, GMA!]. Third, nobody can tell WHEN the tsunami will hit 'cause it also takes seconds of shaking the ground for the waves to go big! My uncle even called here and asked about it, and I simply replied: That was only a joke. 
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[break=Walk By Faith]Walk By Faith
Yeah, yeah. So, I'm hooked once again to Kuya's famous reality show of the series of real life. Ugh. Anyway, so it's goodbye for Rico Robles whose catch-phrase would be Walk by faith. I knew he was going out 'cause of his limited number of fans. How can he have as many as half of John's fans when he's only heard on the radio, right? Duh. No question about that. I hate to mention it, but another one of the many reasons--which I could say is the main point--why he only gained 28% of the Filipinos votes is because is doesn't have it above his neck. Got it? He doesn't have the face to compare with Zanjoe and John. Duh. [But I do think he's quite cuter than Zanjoe--especially the way he speaks English.]
Anyway, I find his line "Walk by faith." quite interesting. Walk by faith. Hmmm. Sounds good. A good advice, that is. Maybe all of us should be walking by faith. The faith that one day the Philippine economy would change or the Philippine itself will progress. Faith. Faith, I should say so myself, is the only thing that keeps everything on this earth moving. Without believing, nothing will happen, right? Don't just go by your daily habits without ever having some faith. Wake up each day with faith, with hope. Whether it be faith in yourself, faith in your dreams, faith in your troubles, simply have faith. Got no faith? Try having faith in yourself. There's nothing to lose, right? Still not satisfied? How about strenghtening your faith in God? Faith in God is always the best option, y'know.
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[break=OPM Music]OPM Music
It's really good to know that Original Pinoy Music is the "in" music of many nowadays. Not only it strenghtens Filipino nationalism, it also helps our fluctuating economy. Do you happen to know that the only reason why the Philippine Peso has not gone down yet to P100=$1 is because of the Filipinos' love for OPM lately? If ever Filipino bands sprouting in every bar existing in this country remained in their respective bars, perhaps the Philippines is worse than its current situation. *tsktsktsk* Thank God!
[/break]Well, just to take my mind off the idea of college and university life.
I'm still waiting for the answers for my dilemma. Hmmm.By the way, before I forget again [LOL], dad and I went to ADMU last Saturday [March 11] for their Open House and seminar about the stuffs they have to offer for future engineers like me. Saw a lot of people, and God! I was so sad 'cause I got no friend 'cause most are boys, Chinese if I may add, and the worst part is: NO HANDSOME DUDES!
But, oh God, thank God for Mr. Photographer who was so cute! At least for me, that is! No further details 'cause, really, I just found the guy damn cute--nothing more, nothing less. [Yet, I'm expecting to meet him in case I enroll there ]Toodles.
Wisdom Wizards - Christmas '05
yahn @ 05:25 PM | Ice-peek! [2 comment/s]
March 20th, 2006
Graduation March
The month of March. For young Filipinos, like me, March can only mean the end of another school year--the fulfillment of ten months of studying. I have been celebrating the joys of March for three years already. It's been all the same every year: early vacation, loitering around, blogging 'til bored, and, of course, happy days.But this year, it would be alot different--not only for me, but for all of us. This year, all of us are gonna take off altogether--no honor students would be given advance finals. This year, we'll be altogether having the same date of vacation. This year, all of us would experience early vacation and the joys of advanced finals. This year, we'd be graduating.
As I continue this essay, I would only like this one to focus on the occasion itself, graduation. I plan to make seven different essays, one for each day starting today, that would have something to do with the said special occasion. For now, let me write down here whatever I have to write on the essence of my graduation.
For the last two months, I have been writing essays and formal themes to be submitted to my teachers about graduation. By the way, I would rather call it commencement since I find it more appropriate, and since graduation is a very commonly used word. Anyway, so I wrote both English and Tagalog papers about commencement. And, being the honest writer I am, I did not find much difficulty on how I would write them. It has been always a habit of mine to write down how I feel and what I think of the subject, so that's exactly what my papers turned out to be.
Commencement--the end of one thing, the start of something new. ~Spiderman
The very day I saw this film and heard this line, I kept it in my mind and heart, and never forgot it. Since that day, I have always reminded of myself of that certain line of the movie because I promised myself that one day, when I'm finally a Senior, I'll always include that in my essays. And now, things turned out as I expected them to be. The very day our English teacher asked us to write a valedictory speech [as a project, of course], this very line became my opening line. And the next thing I know, all of my other essays, even in Filipino, had this line as my opening statement.
Commencement. A very formal term. To me, it means a ceremony that celebrates the fulfillment of a year/term. Celebrate. Fulfillment. Commencement is a jovial word. In commencement, we celebrate the fulfillment of our dreams, of part of our happiness, of part of our goals! To me, commencement is the thing to do when nothing else is to do. Commencement is the very rainbow after a storm.
But it does not only present the end of everything. As the saying goes, when a door closes, God opens a window. Commencement is a sign of new beginnings. Just as you ended your school life, you are about to start to a new stage in life. Whatever that new stage in life may be, one should welcome it open arms.
Graduation is a paradox. As I wrote it in my essay once, it's the great paradox of school life. It is the end, but it is also the start. One cannot view the said occasion as the end only. Neither as the start only. Graduation is both, no matter how confusing it sounds. It is the celebration of both the end of goals, and the start of new beginnings. Celebrate it. Be happy. For everything happened, and more is to come.
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March 21st, 2006
Graduation March: Mentoring Mentors
Usually, whenever one graduates, one leaves behind some things or somebody. For those pessimistic people who hate the workload brought forth by homeworks and exams, they find these things they are about to leave behind a "good riddance". They are happy with what they are leaving behind because they've always longed to rid themselves of such. But for some, leaving behind come graduation time only means saying goodbye to a few, but very important, people who have been part of their lives. I am talking about nobody else but our fair, wise mentors who have taught us, students, throughout high school everything we need to know to prepare ourselves for the real test of life. Our dear teachers.In a high school student's life, teachers are often called "Miss", "Ma'am", and "Sir". True enough, they are the top reason why students hate going to school. They make students' lives complicated, horrible, hell--just to name a few. Students hate them very much. In our anger, we even label them with really bad names!
Yet, no matter how much these students hate them, we start to love them come graduation time, or whenever the final exams are over. Why? Of course! They're no longer a burden for us, that's why. We no longer worry meeting them along the hallways or wherever part of the school 'cause of a very late project still not submitted. We are more than relieved to learn that they would no longer chase them [even in their dreams!] on that failing grade in quarterly exams that needed improvement.
But what the students realize only until they can no longer see them is the fact that if these teachers didn't treat them in such [annoying, scary, intriguing... what else?] ways, then perhaps we wouldn't have learned our lessons, right?
These funny, intriguing, annoying, scary teachers are humans just like us. They once became students just like us, didn't they? They are no different from us--and so let's not expect them to not understand us. They've been in the same stage of life--we ought to learn from them. Students like me need not to experience EVERYTHING personally. These teachers are here with us so that the very same mistakes about to be done are prevented. Why, whoever would want a mistake done twice? Hindi ka pa ba nun natuto?
For all those mentors out there who patiently instructed and guided their beloved mischievous little rascals about the reality of life, this part of the song ought to be dedicated to you--for your perseverance and hardwork; not a single sweat, or tear, of yours is ever wasted because of our silliness.
I thank you for the glowMaraming salamat po!
I thank you for the joy
I thank you for the love you give to me
I'm glowing, glowing inside
With your love shining through
Thank you for everything you do
I'm glowing inside because of you...
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Graduation March: Gratitude
Note from the writer: This essay is reprinted from the valedictory speech I passed to my teacher as a project, which we later delivered in front of her. Hope you like it.Commencement—the end of one thing; the start of something new.
The month of December is perhaps the busiest month of the year—especially for accountants who busting their brains out of all the formula they can think of just to balance and close all existing accounts; that I’m sure. In a high school student’s life, like mine, that said condition falls on March—the month of commencement.
Just like these accountants, I have to recall most, if not all, the transactions I’ve made for the past four years. As I stand here in front of you, I would not choose to remember the pains and sufferings other people have caused me, just as a debtor would collect his receivables. Rather, I choose to unload all the necessary acknowledgements to those who have helped me get over such sufferings, like a creditor decreasing his payables by giving their debtors what is rightfully theirs.
More than forty months ago, I was a freshman student, innocent of what the new world is about to bring. I am, in behalf of the fourth year students before me, indebted to our parents’ care: mothers who never ceased to tell us every step of our way, “Mag-ingat ka!”, and our dear fathers who always trusted us. Dear parents at the back, thank you so much for loving us this much: for guiding our innocent minds on what the real world has to offer, for being strict enough so as not to hurt ourselves further, and, of course, for giving us the “survival kit” of life full of lessons one should never forget. Para sa inyo ang diplomang ito!
All of us Senior students here are sure grateful enough for our dear teachers, who had supported us all throughout our struggles to become the persons we’ve always wanted to be—the very persons we are right now. I would personally like to acknowledge the countless combinations of numbers and signs, corny fictitious novel characters, boring talks, exciting mind games, “rest days”, and so much more—for without them, we wouldn’t really learn our lessons.
To the non-teaching personnel of this academic institution, I, in behalf of my fellow Senior students, would like to acknowledge your hardships in helping us mold our lives with the tasks you’re all assigned to do. The cashiers for accounting correctly our tuition fees, typists and clerks for typing properly and clearly our major written exams, our ate’s and kuya’s in the canteen for serving us enough food, the nuns for educating us just like teachers, and our directress and principal—Sr. Ana Isabel and Mrs. Nancy Samaniego, respectfully—for accepting us to finish our secondary education here.
And of course, to my fellow Senior graduates—thanks for making these high school days elating for all of us. All of the precious memories, both sad and happy, sealed in my memory. I once heard a saying that goes like: scars are ugly, but they only remind us that the past is real. Perhaps I have that same scar of the past to help me remind of all the craziness I’ve been up to in high school. I hope you have one, too. Though not very big and scarcely noticeable, I hope it would always remind you of me, of the people around you now, of your high school friends—of high school memories.
So this is the end. This is it. Here we are, celebrating gleefully and miserably at the same time. But just as the door of high school memoirs close, the window of college opportunities open. One last look behind, and we’re all ready to set off forward. Once, two people looked back, and the fool asked “Why did God give this if I can’t permanently have it?”; his wise companion patted him on the back saying, “Be grateful for God wanted you to have more than what you’ve lost.” I hope all of us here is the latter as we looked back.
Thank you and good morning.
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March 22nd, 2006
Graduation March: Gratitude [Tagalog version]
Note from Yahn: Ang sanaysay na ito ay hinango sa orihinal na Valedictory Speech ipinasa ko sa aking guro sa Pilipino. Ito'y sanaysay na animo'y ako mismo ang tinanghal na valedictorian ng klase. Nawa'y magustuhan ninyo ito. Salamat.Sister Ana Isabel V. Marcelo, OSA; Gng. Nancy Ann A. Samaniego; ginagalang naming mga OSA sisters at administrador; minamahal naming magulang at pangalawang magulang sa pangalawang tahanan namin; mga kapwa kong nagsipagtapos; magandang hapon.
Sa entabladong kinatatayuan ko ngayo'y dito naming mga kabataan isa-isang tatanggapin ang ang bunga ng aming pagsulat, pagbasa, pag-type, pagsalita, paggawa, pagtalon, pagtakbo, pagsigaw, pagsayaw, pagpapaganda, pag-iyak, pagkalungkot, at higit sa lahat, pag-ngiti. At sa lahat ng "pag" na ito, wala ni isa dito ang makabuluhan kung hindi dahil sa mga taong nagmahal sa amin ng buong-buo.
Sa pagpasok ko pa lamang kanina dito, una nang sumalubong sa akin si Kuya "Guard" na apat na taon na rin kaming mga estudyanteng hinaharangan sa gate ng may masungit at makapangyarihang ID please. Ang mga masisipag na manggagawang ito--sila ang pinakamahalagang tulong ng aming mga guro at madre sa pagdidisiplina sa amin. Maraming salamat.
Pagdaan ko sa tinaguriang covered walk papunta dito sa auditorium, nakasalubong ko ang guro ko na tulad ng dati ay nginitian ako. Sa kanyang paglampas sa akin, naalala ko tuloy sina Ms. English, Ms. Physics, Ms. Chem--silang mga guro na dahil sa pagkamalilimutin ko ay sa asignaturang tinuturo nila ko na lang sila natatandaan. Ang mga guro kong mababait, masusungit, malalambing, matataray, nakakatuwa, nakakatakot, nakakatawa, nakakainis--silang mabubuti at pasensyosong tinuruan kami at hinasa ang aming mga abilidad. Pinasasalamatan ko kayo sa kahusayan ninyo. Salamat dahil natagalan kami ng aming mga pangalawang magulang.
Sa harap naman ng malaking auditorium, ako'y napahinto sa mala-stampede na pagsbungad sa akin ng aking mga tol. Mga kabataang tulad ko ay hindi mapakali sa sabay-sabay na pagdaloy ng milyun-milyong kaisipan: high school, graduation, college, paghihiwalay, pagkikita, pagsasamahan--lahat na! Kung tutuusin, lahat ng kaisipang ito'y walang kabuluhan kundi dahil sa mga pasaway, ngunit masaya, kong mga utol. Tenk yu!
Napakarami naming sinasabi kaya't napalakas ang aming ingay. Hindi na rin kami masyadong nagulat sa pagsitsit ni sister--ang kapita-pitagang direktora ng paaralang ito. Ang mga administrador na itong kaagapay ng aming mga guro sa disiplina--salamat ng marami sa malugod ninyong pagtanggap sa amin.
Sa pagtalikod ko sa mga kaibigan ko, napangiti ako sa tanaw ng mga magulang ko na walang sawang sumuporta at gumabay sa bawat paghakbang namin. Maraming, maraming salamat po! Para sa inyo ang diplomang ito!
At higit sa lahat, napatingala ako sa lugod na malamang ganito ako kamahal ng Panginoong Maykapal. Marapat ngang pasalamatan ang Diyos.
Sa ating lahat dito, maligayang pagtatapos at mabuhay tayo!
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Graduation March: Kapatiran
Sa mundo ng makabagong teknolohiyang kinagisnan kong tinaguriang blogging, marami nang bloggers ang gumawa nito. Ako ngayon pa lang. Medyo huli na siguro ako para sa iba dyan. Pero sa palagay ko, hindi pa ako papahuli. At kahit huli man, magaling pa rin, di ba?Sa mga utol ko dyan, pasensya na ngayon ko lang ito naisipan! Sa totoo lang, matagal-tagal ko na nga itong planong isulat. Ngunit napagdesisyunan kong sa araw na ito--kung kailan siguradong patapos na--ay pasasalamatan ko kayo.
Unahin na natin ang Liga ng Nagdudugong Ilong [League of Bleeding Nose]. Kung tutuusin, mga dalawa't kalahating taon lang naman tayo nagkasama-sama, hindi ba? Pero sa palagay ko'y hindi na iyon mahalaga. Ang lalong mas importante ay ang pinagsamahan natin sa loob lamang ng humigit-kumulang dalawang taon.
Biruin mo? Apat na taon ang ipinagkaloob sa atin ng Poong Maykapal upang makapagsama-sama, pero kalahati lamang nito ang nagamit ng husto? Ngunit kahit na may kalahating nasayang para dito, sa huli'y tayo-tayo rin ang magkakasama. Masaya ba?
Si Bebe Hershey ko. Simula first year nakasama ko na yan. Masarap kausap, kaya naman madali kong nakasundo. Nang mga panahong yun na nagkahiwa-hiwalay kayong "trio", kung kani-kanino ka ata napasabit. At ako rin, naliligaw ng landas non kaya kung saan-saan napadpad. At sa kabutihang palad, nagkita tayo. Sa susunod tayo pa rin mag-uusap ha--tungkol sa kung anu-anong bagay lalu na pagdating sa kayamanan ng angkan ninyo! Mamimiss ko yung isang tao dyan na madalas katampuhan si Annel, lalo na ang mga gadgets na pinagdadadala niya sa classroom, at pati na rin ang mahigpit kong kurot sa matambok at malambot mong pisngi!
Ang lola ng grupo, si Lola Thea. Nakakatuwa kang kausap minsan, lola. Bakit minsan lang? Hmmm, siguro dahil minsan puro ka kalokohan. Puro ka-weird-uhan! Ang saya-saya mo eh! Tapos minsan pa bungangera't war freak ka. Hay nako. Buti na lang nagkatabi tayo ngayong mga huling araw sa likod--kasama si Keso! Dun kita talaga nakilala. Ngunit nahirapan din ako dahil lagi ka namang tulog! Kaya ayan! Yang mga kalokohan mo'ng mamimiss ko. Sa palagay ko naman sa college wala na akong makikilalang mas hyper sa'yo, di ba?
Hey, Rio! Alam mo namang ang sarap mong kausap eh. Hindi ba nga sinulat ko sa papel mo na madali at masarap kang kausap dahil may sense. Sabi mo iyon din ang sinulat mo sa akin! Sa totoo lang, madali nga naman kitang nakasundo dahil nga "matino" kang kausap.
Nirerespeto ko anu man ang opinyon mo, lalo't dahil madalas nagkakasundo tayo dito. Hinding hindi ko makakalimutan mga pag-uusap natin sa back gate habang hinihintay natin si Mang Tony. Palagay ko naman wala na akong makakatagpo sa college na kasing tino mong kausap. Kung meron man, mahihirapan akong mahanap siya. Maswerte na nga ako't nagkita tayo, eh!Si Annel? Alam mo nung una hindi kita nakasundo. Ewan ko ba kung bakit. Siguro dahil na rin sa impression kong foreigner ka. Pero wala ka naman palang pinagkaiba sa aming mga Pinoy eh! Mas pino ka nga lang kumilos--dalagang Pilipina, kung baga. Maria Clara? Hindi rin. Naapektuhan ka na ng kaingayan namin eh! Hahaha! Natutuwa ako sa mga pag-uusap natin. Lalo na sa pag-interview ko sa iyo. Ano, qualified na ba 'kong maging interviewer? Para na ba akong Boy Abunda or Kris Aquino?
Interesado lang talaga akong malaman ang mga bagay na malabong maranasan ko eh. Tulad na lang ng pagpunta sa ibang bansa. Sa ibang university siguradong mas marami pa akong makikilalang foreigner na kung saan-saang lupalop ng mundo nanggaling na pwede kong makapanayam [ang lalim, tol!]. Pero tandaan mo: wala pa ring tatalo sa interview ko sa'yo! Syempre, ikaw pa--eh, ikaw ang una eh!At syempre, ang bakal na kung tagurian ay Doña Donna. Sa simula, hindi talaga kita makasundo. Alam mo kung bakit? Dahil ang tahimik mo. At liban pa doon, parang nahihirapan ka pang makipag-socialize. Hindi mo maipakilala sa mundo ang sarili mo. Pero tingnan mo naman sarili mo ngayon. Nakasama mo lang si Jenelle sa mga "gyera" nya eh, naapektuhan ka niya agad! At maganda naman ang naging epekto. Lalo kitang nakilala. Hindi ko akalaing pwede ka pa lang maging ganyang kakulit! Hindi ko malilimutan yung isang beses na iyon na pinilit mo akong tumabi sa'yo dahil wala kang katabi. Malabo atang makakilala pa ako ng mas "bakal" at mas makulit pa sa isang magnet na tulad mo!
Sa Liga, mahal na mahal ko kayo. Maraming salamat sa pinagsamahan. Hinding-hindi ko kayo makakalimutan!
Sa FUXHT? Kulang na kulang. Tatlong taon din tayong nagsalu-salo sa iyakan, sa tawanan, sa katarantaduhan, sa trip--sa lahat ng bagay na bumubuo sa high school life! Gayun pa man, pwede namang ma-summarize ang lahat ng ito sa ilang mga salita:
SENIORS '06: SIGNING OFF [";]
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March 24th, 2006
Graduation March: Marching With Honor
Today's post would be a little different from what I expect it to be. Supposedly, this essay will give praises and thanks to all the parents out there who have loved us, students, with all their might through presenting us the best gift they could ever afford us: education. But, unfortunately, I'm not in the mood for some happy talks of gratitude and appreciation. I'm sad. But more than that, I am angry. Very angry. To whom? With nobody. Only with the situation at hand. A very messy one that, I'm warning you, someone as conservative as I am is usually disgusted and ashamed at even the slightest thought of it.Drinking.
There, I've said it. Now someone out there must be mad at me. Perhaps more of surprised. I don't know. I'm not even sure if that someone is in his/her right state of mind to even open the computer. Even I was surprised at how lousy s/he acted. I mean, they. I can't believe what I'm seeing. Two young sixteen-year-olds, wasting their last moments in high school and hard-earned bucks in--what?!--a bottle or two of alcoholic beverages? And I thought they were wiser than I thought they would be. Boy, I was wrong.
I'm not mad at the fact that they chose a school day when they have the rest of the summer season to do what they've been dying to try out. I'm not mad at the idea that they did this thing not only once, not only twice, but thrice! [or so I think--who knows, they might have gulped more than the number I thought they have] I'm not mad at the obvious truth that they keep doing this stuff untiringly out of depression brought by some guy-problem. I'm not mad at them, really. To think, I SHOULDN'T be mad at them. But, I am.
God, am I stupid or what? The last thing I'll ever want to realize or know is the f***in' fact that they're my friends. I'm the kind of person who never minds gettin' all the blames for nothing. But I'm also the kind of person who, when in the right mind, would dig deep just to find a flaw from another and blame him/her instead. God, I blame them for being so stupid for wasting their time because of some guy, because of some problem that even drinking can't solve, because of the fun one gets out of such habit, because of the bonding moments spent with one another through such... God, I must be more stupid! Imagine me, their very own friend, can't understand them?
Yet, the worst part here is the awful fact that even if I get to understand them, I will never accept such behavior. I'm no moralist, but why can't I accept such? I used to accept people as they are 'cause I believe in free will, but now--what happened? Are my true colors now showing up?
In the midst of all this rambling anger inside, a part of me is still with them. A part of me still cares. A part of me still would like to listen. A part of me still would like to hug and ease the pain. A part of me still loves. A part of me... still belongs to the same ol' gang of five.
To end this [ang bilis ba?], I would just like to leave my Bhez ang the rest of the gang at least three things to never forget:
1. Life is not all about problems.Today, I've learned at least two tough lessons:
2. Drinking intensifies the emotion or reasons for doing it. If you celebrate and you drink, the merrier. If you mourn and you drink, the more depressing. Drinking doesn't solve problems [alam nyo na yan!]; it doesn't worsen them. In short, drinking does not affect the problem in any way--pag gising mo, masakit na ulo mo, pero andyan pa rin yan.
3. And, nobody ever lives for himself, alone. Kaya nga nagsisiksikan na mga tao sa mundo eh!
1. Peer pressure is for real. Never do anything out of desire to simply exprience nor out of other's advice. Nobody, and nobody, can ever tell you what you should be doing but YOURSELF.
2. Friends are tested when you're at your worst.
I wish I've done better with the latter.
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March 25th, 2006
Official Release
You think you're looking at a black and white photo. Look closer. Spiderman is wearing a black suit in Spiderman 3. Tobey Maguire returns as Peter Parker/Spiderman in the third installment of Spiderman. Official release date: May 4, 2007Being an avid Spiderman/Tobey Mcguire fan, I am deeply disappointed and devasted upon reading the last line of the international release of the above photo with matching caption I read in the Philippine Star. I could no longer wait to see it! I must see it now!
I have to go now. Will look for a new pair of black shoes for Tuesday's graduation.
:: edit :: Meet the new Yahn with a new hair style.
mood ecstatic
listen Avril Lavigne's Falling Down
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March 28th, 2006
First Day As An Official HS Grad
Damn! I had a hard time sleeping the other night! Duh! As if I'm too damn excited for yesterday's highlights. Had lots--as in super lots!--of ideas crashing in my delicate brain. Dunno. Memories coming back. Plans for the future. Ugh!(Grad at last!)
[break=Consider this...]Considerations
I could not comprehend the fact that I'm actually considering stuffs nowadays that I never thought I would consider.
For instance, I never thought that I'd get this excited to go to UPLB and choose the course I'm gonna take! OMG! But really, it's not something that I never thought of considering. It's just that I was so not ready the past few weeks on the thought of studying stuffs I'm not interested in. *sigh*
Well, the thing I'm really considering is having my hair straightened. Back then, the idea of having my hair straightened is definitely so not me! A lot of people have already persuaded me to have my hair treated not because it's messy and all, but because it's the "in" thing nowadays. Besides, my friends find it favorable in my part 'cause back in my childhood years, I had really straight hair--and it did look nice on me!
*sigh* So I guess one of these days you'll meet a whole new Yahn--ready to face the next stage of life awaiting for me: college. Only problem now is... I don't have the money to do it! And perhaps I won't have the money to maintain it. Tsktsktsk.
And besides, what bothers me most that keeps me from doing such is my fear that my hair would turn out worse that its current state!
You see, it's about time that I saw the light and woke up to the truth that my hair doesn't look as nice as I thought so.Anyhow, wait and see what happens as I prepare for my future. [So, this is how I prepare myself for college--by beautifying, eh?
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[break=PBB]Rustom Padilla's Coming Out...
not as a gay, but out of Kuya's house.
Everybody's talking about it. Even I want to talk about it. Who would have ever thought that he would eventually have the nerve to voluntarily exit Big Brother's House, knowing for sure that he's gonna reign the ultimate housemate? I've always thought about such. I was wondering what if he decided to voluntarily exit, who would eventually win? Now that the very controversy--the very life--of Pinoy Big Brother has gone, what's gonna happen to the rest of 'em? What's gonna be in store for the final 4?
Just a thought: biglang baba siguro ng rating ng PBB dahil sa paglabas ni Rustom. Tsktsktsk. He's such a great loss. Kaya siguro ang dami niyang guest-ing sa iba't ibang show ng dos.
Hmmm, John, Zanjoe, Bianca and Keanna are now left--who's it gonna be among these four? Well, truthfully I don't have a sure bet who has the knack for winning. John isn't very controversial, so I guess we'll have to cross him out. Zanjoe? I don't think he deserves the title just because he's all macho and handsome [according to some!]. In fact, I don't find him handsome at all! Perhaps he's hot 'cause of his sexy body.
As for Bianca, I'm betting she has a chance on that condominium. She's such a good girl--though she seems to be cheating on her boyfriend. But I believe her relationship with Zanjoe is only as a friend. A good friend, that is. Bianca is still on her right mind not to cheat on her boo. Perhaps that certain thing we're all thinking about going on between them will eventually show. It's just that it's not yet time. Perhaps that's where their good friendship is headed, right?
Oh, and there's Keanna too! Well, she's quite controversial--and she has the vote of her ever-beloved best friend Rustom. Guess she has a knack to win the title. Hmmm.
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[break=Yipee!]Summer Beginnings
Yipee! My friends and I are about to start spending officially the summer vacation of 2006 in the very right foot! On Sunday, Fuxht will go overnight swimming somewhere in the south [still not sure whether in Quezon or Batangas]! Haha! Finally urged my parents to let me go! LOL Good news too 'cause our doubts of Jenelle not coming 'cause of his dad all went to the drain since we didn't have to give any details to let Jenelle come with us! All we said was "Tito, can Jenelle go swimming with us?" And he simply replied, "Sure, you take care of Jenelle, ha." YAY!
Well, I'll have to fix up and get ready for that swimming! Yahoo! But other than that, last night I've been thinking alot about having my hair straightened.
Yup, I've finally made up my mind to take the risk! Just hope it looks good on me though. And that such treatment wouldn't ruin my fine tresses! XD[/break]
Gotta go now. Have so much to say, but I don't think it would be a good idea to post them all here. Will write them *summer* ideas some other time this summer.
Fuxht - Graduate na... sa wakas!
mood :tonylee:
listen Nikki Gil's Glowing Inside
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March 30th, 2006
Second Day As An Official HS Grad
Today's my [as well as my friends' and batchmates', of course] second day as an official high school graduate. Duh! Already, alot has happened with all the things we've been doing as summer opened!(College Sample)
[break=Chismax!!!]Chismisan Sessions
Yesterday, after posting my masterpiece presentation of the other day's highlight, I went to Bhez's place to unwind and chitchat. But that's not all, of course. It was her mom's birthday. Hummed a few bars, ate alot of yummy delicacies [eh?], then as expected, chismisan to the max!
I arrived at their pad around four-thirty--and I thought I was already late 'cause the two others are supposed to be there early with their walking distance from Bhez's place. Thought no food was left for me to munch on. Been thinking that I missed on alot of chikas and gossips and news. But I was wrong. Instead, I was their first visitor. Bhez and her family went to Makati earlier for a condo, and they fortunately found a nice one. I was lucky too 'cause I arrived at exactly the same time Bhez arrived [well, almost! They were first, of course!]. But I'd still say it's such a nice coincidence. It's a good thing we came by at the same time 'cause I really didn't know they had plans to leave earlier for that day. Thought they were gonna stay in their house and prepare for their guests. Only to find out that a third of the guests expected was already with them.
So, what's with this chitchat session? Oh, the usual. Our topics ranged from the littlest things--like how Ms. Physics looked like in her new straightened hair that seemed to be glued altogether by a gawgaw [sort of coconut oil glue] she must've mistaken as her shampoo--to the most intriguing stuffs that has been boggling our minds since last week--like how irritating Verbose is and all of her other friends--to the topics we've been dying to talk about and share are opinions on--like what happened just last Friday and all that stuff for doing it. Ugh! The possiblities are endless, as they say!
I was glad 'cause yesterday, we got to talk about that Fridday thinggie. I confronted Bhez all about that stuff I just wrote here and blah blah blah blah. What's more, as we talked about it, we were all laughing about it! Can you believe it? I was so pissed off at the current situation, but now we get a few chuckles around it. The reason for this funny turn out of events could be regarded to the fact that Bhez couldn't remember--she can remem-blur some, though
--all the stuffs we've been blabbing about her silliness then! Haha! It was really hilarious!Well, we were also v. [no, not V for Vendetta!] excited for that beach thinggie! YAY! Can't wait for Quezon [it's confirmed! Though, still have not spot LOL!! Hope all goes well in our little escapade plan in the middle of the night.
Then, uhm, well, I can't remember everything. Really, our talks jump from one topic to another without notice. Haha! So, let's leave it that, okay? We don't need to talk about those stuff anymore, right? Right.
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[break=Idol!]Idols...
Speaking of V for Vendetta, I have recently read a magazine article about the leading of the said latest flick, Natalie Portman. Upon reading the said article have I only realized that she is one amazing woman! She is a certified beauty and brains in my book [if I ever have one
]! I find her very beautiful, especially in her front-cover pic, and the magazine revealed to me that she's a straight-A studette in Harvard! Gosh! Not only that, she also proved herself worthy as she turned down a bold movie offer, to which she said [not in exact words]:Well, I don't think it's a nice idea to see a 13-year-old having, uhm, intercourse with a 50-year-old man.Korek ka jan! Add up to that the fact that she said that when she was only fifteen years old! San ka pa?
Natalie Portman - Not your average Harvard, straight-A actress
Another amazing woman I've recently been loving is our very own Precious Lara Quigaman. I'm so enthralled by how great her achievements have been. Well, perhaps she has not really achieved alot in life for now, right? She's still young, and besides, she only won the Ms. International title we've all been thirsting for. Well, she didn't JUST win it, she also gave hope to the Filipinos! She has even outdone Meriam Quiambao with the greatness of her title!
But what has been really amazing about her all this time is her perseverance. I have never seen someone like her in real life who is as determined as her to get to a goal that no odds could ever stop her from doing her thing--not even destiny. She already lost the first time, but nobody thought she'd try a second time. And, viola! She succeeded, finally! I can't help, but I guess winnning the Ms. International crown was only a bonus for her. Wow, what big bonus!
Precious Lara Quigaman - Waving her way to the top
So, I guess you might be asking what's my point? My very point here is that such as these two beautifully smart women have become my idol. No, I don't praise them or worship them or anything exaggerated than that. They simply are my model. They are my role models in terms of outer and inner beauty, and intelligence. I look up to them simply because of the obvious facts their certificates and crowns are telling everyone. Through them, I had hope for myself--I become faithful of my own strengths. Instead of being green of envy of them, I'd rather respect them for what they have become and what they believe in.
No, you must mistaken me as a stalker of some sort who'd copy everything they simply do. No, for me they're still not perfect. Not because I know they have their own weakness like everybody else, but because I know that nobody is, anyway. What I plan to do is to simply be inspired by what I love the most about them: their beauty and their intelligence. As I've always put it:
If they can do it, so can I![/break]
Phew! Before I posted this one, my head sucked a bit. I guess tomorrow's another busy for me as I will fix now my confirmation of slot in UPLB. YAY! I am answering now my the two other reply slips about subjects to be taken on the 1st sem. HALP! I do not have any idea what these subjects are! Can anyone out there help me?
Ta-ta. Another busy day tomorrow. Summer is just starting, yet already I have alot to write. I haven't even started with those *summer* ideas I was planning to post sooner or later.
PS: Thanks to Tabulas' more space! Yay! Cool usericons on the way! Now I can't choose which icons to use in my posts!
mood exhausted
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