Entries for December, 2008
December 6th, 2008
Four
Four. A pretty meaningful number for me, at least for this week. What's with the number anyway? It's all in the sequence of events.
How do I explain thee? Let me enumerate some ways.
Me: Sir, sino po yun katabi ni Sir Lou?
Sir: Ah, ano nga bang pangalan nito? Si blah blah. Batch blah blah blah...
Me [thinking]: Boom! Jackpot. Sa dinami-dami pa. Saglit lang siguro to.
This week marks the fourth week of classes for the second semester.
During reporting...
Him: Tang ina, anong batch ko?
Me: Blah blah blah po.
Him: Sigurado ka dyan ah. Pag ako nagkamali ng sulat dito...
Me [thinking]: Siguradong tama yan, si Sir na nagsabi eh.
*after a while and a few more respectful answers*
Him: Tang ina...
Me [thinking]: Ano na naman?!
Him: ...pino-po mo pa rin ako!
Me: Ay, sorry po! *giggles* OK, sabi mo eh. [thinking: Mamura na naman ako nito eh.]
Four marks my favorite day of the week, the count starting from Monday.
President: Lipat na po tayo, bawal na po tayo dito blah blah blah...
Him: Anong oras na?
Me: *reading my trusted, favorite silver watch, then showing it to him anyway; the watch read 6:55 PM*
Him: Aba, naka-isang oras na pala tayo noh.
And on that Thursday night, I spent four hours of my precious five-hour reporting time with this member that I never intend to know. Who turns out to be someone quite likeable, unlike the way I have perceived him.
Him: Blah blah blah blah... tang ina... blah blah blah.
*dead air*
Me: *looking around for possible members to report to*
Him: Sige, kwento pa!
Me [startled, distracted, thinking]: Ah sige, teka--tanong, tanong, tanong.
Me: Mmmm. Bakit blah blah blah blah...
Him: Kasi... blah blah blah blah...
*dead air*
Him: Anong oras na?
Me: *looking surprised myself at the time, then showing him my watch as well again*
Him [surprised]: Sakto ba yan?
Me [reading my watch that read 9:25 PM]: Mmmm, opo.
Those four hours. I now realize that time really is gold. Who would want to spend such long hours just talking and talking even about the most nonsense stuffs?
The next day...
Sir: Ang tagal ng reporting mo kay ano kahapon ah. Anong pinag-usapan nyo?
Me: Oo nga po eh. Nagulat na lang ako 10 PM na pala. Maraming bagay po. Anything under the sun.
Sir: Wala na ngang sun eh.
Me: *giggles* Edi, everything under the moon po.
Sir [laughing wickedly]: Pinagtatawanan na nga namin kayo eh.
Me [thinking]: OK, tsismis na naman.
After that...
Sir: Ui, Ron! Magre-report daw. Kaka-report lang sakin. Walang bukambibig kundi si ano eh...
Ron: Ah yun kahapon. *smiles wickedly and turns to me*
And during reporting to Ron...
Ron: Sinong pinakamatagal mo nang na-report-an?
Me [answering sarcastically and shyly]: Si Sir blah blah...
Ron: Ah oo, nandun nga pala ako kagabi.
Me [thinking]: Ginagawan lang ata ako nito ng issue eh.
And I don't know what it exactly meant. But at least I am sure of one thing: I miss it. I miss it now more than ever.
PS: After that day, a common reaction of my batchmates was: sino yun, ate? Ang tagal nyo dun ah. Nakarami rin siguro sana kayo, naka-8 na ko eh. My reaction: it's all right with me not because of the time I spent with him, but it gave you guys the chance to cope up with my pace of reporting. Yabang! XD
OK, wake up. Good days are gone. Welcome hell this time.
mood sleepy
listen Tumatakbo by Mojofly
yahn @ 09:29 PM | Book Of The Yahn [Add comment/s]
December 14th, 2008
Anong Kaibahan?
A gift from last Christmas. My God, pasko na naman? How fast time flies...
Nandito nakaukit pa rin sa puso ko
Nang sabihin mong wag na lang
Nandito nakatatak pa rin sa isip ko
Kung paano mong tinalikuran ang lahat
Kaya yan! ~Mark
Kay bilis ba't umalis, nakakamiss
Na bigla lang di ko man lamang nalaman
Na mawawala
Na bigla lang di mo man lamang naisip
Na idahan-dahan
Hindi ako sanay sa biglaan
Unti unti na lang sanang nawala
Dream Catcher: I hope I get to catch the best dreams tonight.
Hindi ba natin kayang magkunwari
at sabihing sige na lang
Hindi ba natin kayang dayain
Ang mga yakap sa tuwing lumalambing
Kay bilis ba't umalis, nakakamiss
If your stop getting better, you stop being good. ~Ron
Na bigla lang di ko man lamang nalaman
Na mawawala
Na bigla lang di mo man lamang naisip
Na idahan-dahan
Hindi ako sanay sa biglaan
Unti unti na lang sanang nawala
Di ako sanay sa biglaan
Unti unti na lang sanang nawala
Natapos na ang linggo. Matatapos na rin ang taon. Anong naging kaibahan mula sa nakaraang taon? Ang daming nangyari ngayon--ba't kaya lahat yon naganap? At ba't ko kaya naramdaman lahat ng ito?
I'm already excited for the upcoming year to come. Lalo na sa darating pang linggo. Sa wakas, malapit na bakasyon! Pero bukod dun, malapit nang maisakatuparan ang isa sa mga pinlano ko. Yehey! Ngayon pa lang masaya na ko.
Salamat sa Diyos. 
yahn @ 01:05 AM | Book Of The Yahn [2 comment/s]
December 22nd, 2008
Disorganized. Ponderings. Routines. Christmas.
Disorganized. Enough said. My thoughts right now have no direction, no common point to which I could draw realizations or reflections from. A lot, and I do mean a lot, is going through my mind.
By night fall, I get tired thinking, and thankfully enough I get to sleep easily. But once I wake up at four or five in the morning, worries and wonderings come crashing all over again. And then at the mid of my chest there goes my heart beating fast enough to keep me awake for a while, unless I check my phone for messages. And true enough, someone's name would appear and the heart beats much faster, and nervousness would crawl all over my body. Like now.
So due to this disorganization of my thoughts, I have decided to post song lyrics instead, just to unload a few of my burdens.
BROKEN by Lighthouse
The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on...
I'm barely holdin' on to you
The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose, they're still looking for life
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on...
I'm barely holdin' on to you
I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hangin' on to the words you say
You said that I will, will be OK
The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on...
I'm barely holdin' on to you
I've been liking this song since sem break, when I first heard it in Grey's Anatomy. It's melodramatic and I find that it has a wide range of meaning. I love most here the melody and mixture of lyrics, and not exactly its drama.
SO THIS IS CHRISTMAS by John Lennon
So this is Christmas
And what have you done?
Another year over
And a new one just begun.
And so happy Christmas
I hope you have fun
The near and the dear one
The old and the young.
A very Merry Christmas
And a Happy New Year
Let's hope it's a good one
Without any fear.
And so this is Christmas
For weak and for strong
For rich and the poor ones
The world is so wrong.
And so happy Christmas
For black and for white
For yellow and red ones
Let's stop all the fight.
A very Merry Christmas
And a Happy New Year
Let's hope it's a good one
Without any fear.
So this is Christmas
And what have we done?
Another year over
And a new one just begun.
And so happy Christmas
I hope you have fun
The near and the dear one
The old and the young.
A very Merry Christmas
And a Happy New Year
Let's hope it's a good one
Without any fear.
War is over!
If you want it
War is over!
Now!
A Christmas song. Enough said for the season.
I wanna go back to my old routines. What are those anyway? I wanna be back in my Lord's arms. *sigh*
Funny how we say some things but act in a different way. As I've once said, be careful not to confuse what you say with what you do. I never thought there'd always be a difference.
OK, this has become crap. I'm leaving now. I'll come back soon for real blog posts, real journal entries, real writing. I'm much too bothered with the downpour of text messages. Toodles.
yahn @ 07:59 PM | Book Of The Yahn [1 comment/s]
December 25th, 2008
Bliss
Yuletide Season Prayer
Dear Lord,
I thank thee for the gifts--the material ones, the love, the family, and most especially the salvation you've freely given to all. Your seer today did remind me well of two things: your love and your presence.
Indeed, I do have a lot to be grateful for. First is for the gifts received this year. Love them! Second is the whole year that has passed--I survived! Plus all those memories that made me feel all sorts of emotion. And then of course your loving mercy keeping me intact and hopeful. You deserve more than thanksgiving, praise and glory.
Well, you already know that one wish of mine. But, as I've said this evening, I'm very much willing to wait--all for you. I accept whatever you have in store for me, for you know and give best to your children. Anything to fulfill your purposes, Lord.
I'll keep in touch, Lord. I swear. I love you.
I Don't Remember
I can't recall what he looked like
I can't even recall how long his hair was
I can't remember the pitch of his voice
I can't remember the way he spoke
I don't remember anything physical about him at all.
But I do remember how much he hated Eleven Minutes by Coelho
I do remember the way he aced the EE 11 finals
I recall so well the foul words he kept on using
I recall vividly how he predicted that he would marry a friend some day
I remember the excruciating four-hour conversation.
I had no intention of listening in the first place
I never thought I'd be here anyway!
I have every reason to forget it all
Yet still, by the end of the day, at the back of my mind...
I remember.
For God so loved the world
He gave us his only son
Jesus Christ our saviour
His most precious one
yahn @ 02:54 AM | The Letters, Book Of The Yahn [2 comment/s]
December 31st, 2008
Stories
I've been musing more than a week ago about how fast the year is ending, that once again I'd have to write down a sort of 'review' for the year that has passed. But then, right now it isn't about me not in the mood to recall or what. I actually am remembering a lot of things lately! Except that, I recall a lot not about this whole year, but more of this month... more of this encounter of mine.
I never thought I could tell stories this much to someone. Just about anything goes whenever I talk to him. I always thought he would be just another face in the crowd that I'd always judge based on what I know he did--the very little fact in his life that I knew. I told myself I wouldn't listen to him, I wouldn't really want to know and that I have nothing to do with whatever he says. And eventually, I found myself denying him my trust.
Bottomline is: I'm all wrong. Though I wouldn't really consider him a friend, all I could call of him is 'someone I once talked to.' And it suits him right--my perfect description for him.
Anyway, that was over. New year's here. Time to go back to silly routines and get on with life. I'm just thankful he passed by. I'm just wishing now my memory won't fail me and allow me to remember vividly some day without regret or pain.
Well, I'm here not really to talk about him, but simply write. And still not about him, rather about stories of my past week. Plain tell stories... the way I'd tell them to him. Like anything goes!
On Christmas day, we went to Batangas as usual. Our first stop was in our aunt's newly built mansion in Talisay. It is brand new, but it is beautiful already. There was no entertainment, except perhaps for the small TV with the DVD player and a couple of imported DVDs. My sister and I are wondering how my aunt and uncle and all their household could last such a boring house without much entertainment, even sofas for cozying up and keeping them comfortable. Then again, I guess they're always out anyway on appointments with different people. After all they're here for only a short while, barely two weeks.
Next stop was Nasugbu, home sweet home. Played with more than a dozen kids and gave away stuffs to keep them happy. No unlimited texting for me on that day. Thank goodness, you might say. I simply enjoyed the food and company of the noisy children. Add to that the satisfaction I got from the videoke. Too bad I didn't get the chance to sing my currently favored song, Only When I Sleep by The Corrs. It's been running in my head since like the semestral break.
Now the 26th was a pretty boring day. Can't even remember what I did. Well, I do remember somehow telling myself that I need a new layout for my blog. Until now I haven't started on a new one. Lazy!
The 27th was an expensive day. I went to the great grand Mall of Asia, hailed as the largest mall in the whole world. Met with my new family, orgmates in engineering. Had so much fun taking blooper snapshots around the mall and getting to know orgmates that I have perceived mistakenly. Even enjoyed time scoring a hundred in the videoke and playing fantastic games in the arcade. Though it was one of the most expensive activities we did, besides eating--which really wasn't as much expensive. Well, the most expensive would have been watching Tanging Ina Ninyong Lahat, which was a sure box office hit. I admit I've been satisfied enough with the funny but striking lines Ina spoke. I may as well share it at the end of this post. At the end of the day, we amused ourselves with the anticipated fireworks display. And just before taking off and calling it a day, I happen to come across three people I know from LB. Small world, isn't it?
28th was a bum, but time well spent. Paid back the sleepness nights I owed myself during reporting at the start of the month. And then I have decided to go back to the texting world.
By the 29th... well, all of a sudden I don't remember! I just recall having some serious talk with this guy that I usually share funny comments with. Surprised me to find him opening up and sharing his story with me.
Then again, that was in the morning, like 3 AM. When I woke up at 10, a greeting sent shivers up and down my spine. And the rest of the day has been filled with stories--anything under the sun! And that's how I happen to spend that text-filled, bum, happy day.
Yesterday, 30th, was shopping day. Bought new clothes for the new year, and shoes, as well as accessories, plus added a nice, big bag in my collection. But best of all, I finally got myself a copy of The Emperor's Club. Yay! Dad and I watched it last night and we both loved the inspiration it brought forth. I've been looking for it since like the first time I saw it, and now I get the chance to watch it over and over again. ^-^
I'm really supposed to post now the review and read back the good ol' entries. Yesterday I've been doing some reading, except that I've been reading text messages. It's over now, I could let them go and erase them all tonight. *sigh* I honestly intend to look back on the year it has been, but only to find myself lingering too much on the past 30 days. Or more like 10 days.
Anyway, I'll post another one later and do flood somehow this blog of mine. I hope I won't get too distracted. [x_x]
Ang lahat ng problema may solusyon. Kung walang solusyon, wag nang problemahin. ~Ina Montecillo
mood chipper
watch Love Actually
yahn @ 03:02 PM | Book Of The Yahn [Add comment/s]