Entries for October, 2009
October 3rd, 2009
Drunken Bitterness and Sober Sweet-Nothingness
Two weeks ago.
Why do I like you so much as this? And it hurts so bad that you like her that much, the way that I would have wanted you to like me. How come I badly want you like this when all you did was make me fall? I darn want you so badly. If you only knew... then maybe you wouldn't have hung out with me even more. Damn!
And today.
I can't wait to tell you. This has to be spit out already. I have to know already an answer. Just say it, or mean it. Either way, I'm already prepping up myself for the moment. I'm more prepared for the response more than how I'm gonna say it.
Sigh. What on earth is up to? Could this really be it? @___@
listen Almost by Tamia
watch Gossip Girl Season 3
yahn @ 01:45 AM | Book Of The Yahn [Add comment/s]
October 14th, 2009
For the last time.
The semester is almost over. And I got nothing more to say.
No, I just cannot pour my heart out. No, I don't plan so.
That is exactly what I hate about emotions: always fluctuating, never reliable.
Oh thank God I still have time. And I got just enough time to think things over, and not plunge head first.
No, not worth the risk.
Goodbye it is. Goodbye it will be.
Closing Time
Semisonic
Closing time, open all the doors and let you out into the world.
Closing time, turn all of the lights on over every boy and every girl.
Closing time, one last call for alcohol, so finish your whiskey or beer.
Closing time, you don't have to go home but you can't stay here.
I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
Take me home.
Closing time, time for you to go out to the places you will be from.
Closing time, this room won't be open 'til your brothers or you sisters come.
So gather up your jackets, and move it to the exits - I hope you have found a friend.
Closing time, every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.
Yeah, I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
Take me home.
Closing time, time for you to go back to the places you will be from.
I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
Take me home.
Closing time, every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.
yahn @ 03:00 AM | Book Of The Yahn [Add comment/s]
So let's do it.
So let's finish the story.
I talk, you listen.
I pour my heart out, you listen blankly.
My pulse is racing, my mind is screaming out.
So let's wrap up this session.
I shut my mouth, you blab.
I keep asking inappropriate questions, you go on defending yourself.
I listen intently. I laugh out loud. I wish for more time.
So let's keep it real.
I'm just being honest, while you do your thing.
You tell it like it is, I accept it like I should.
When now is all the chance we got, who has to fear the future?
So let's close the deal.
I tell your stories, you tell mine.
Like good ol' times, like good ol' friends--just the way I miss it.
And we part ways without looking back, like it never happened.
Do you even know I miss you?
yahn @ 02:55 PM | Book Of The Yahn [Add comment/s]
October 17th, 2009
A Prelude to Whore-iffic Memoirs
The Whore-iffic Memoirs chronicles horrifyingly drunken whore-some thoughts, suggestions, quotations, real and even imaginary events. To begin with, here are last night's whore-iffic drunken, surreal, but honest thoughts.
Being drunk gives me an excuse to text him.
It crossed my mind once, twice--no, it crossed my mind too many times already that I've lost count.
More whore-iffying lines and stories to watch out for in this link. See yah!
mood cynical
yahn @ 09:50 PM | Whore-iffic Memoirs [Add comment/s]
October 22nd, 2009
One
October 20, 2009
How come I am so annoyed? Darn madness.
yahn @ 07:43 PM | Whore-iffic Memoirs [Add comment/s]
October 25th, 2009
Two
Today, 4am.
I was drunk enough NOT to tell you.
I plan to attend sessions only when you're there. But that's a little impossible now. I guess. Maybe then you'll figure things out.
listen Torpedo by Eraserheads
watch Bring It On 4
yahn @ 06:10 PM | Whore-iffic Memoirs [Add comment/s]
October 26th, 2009
Complex
I want to move on! I don't wanna get stuck on him... thinking he is the only guy for me. I am positive and know perfectly well there are other guys out there. But I also want my heart to feel like I COULD LIKE OTHER PEOPLE.
And right now I just can't do that. I have no freakin' idea why. But right now I just can't. I cannot see the possibility of all other. It may be because he's still around. It maybe because it's the first time I felt this way and I can't let it go. It may even be because of fate. What?
Whatever the case, I can't live in this irony. I can't live in this complication. Everything is changed now. Much more changed than before. I may seem to live the normal life. But deep within, a lot has been going on. A lot has changed.
Now life for me is no longer the same. So much for a change, huh?
mood confused
listen Sugarfree's Kwentuhan
watch 500 Days of Summer
yahn @ 08:59 PM | Book Of The Yahn [2 comment/s]