November 12th, 2009

still friends after break up?

I've mentioned before about my two friends' break up. And just now, I was reading the girl's Facebook notes and status and she seems very depressed over the break up. And she brought up something that sparked my interest-- could a pair of lovers still be friends after a break up?

I used to think that that's possible. And I'm sure she thought so as well, at the beginning. But, it's obvious that it's not working for them--at least not for her. And here's something that she said that upset me: "being friends means that one person is still not over the relationship... that person continues to want the other person in his/her life, to continue to be a part of his/her life." How true is that?

About 2 years ago, my bf and I have written a letter for each other, which we would read 3 years later. And in that letter, I wrote that if we have broken up by the time we read the letter, I hope that we would still be friends. Of course, at that time, I didn't think that I would still be in love with him after we've broken up, so it'll be ok to be friends. Now, if we did break up, would I be willing to be friends with him? I mean, I know that he'll be a great friend. But then again, maybe he's great because he's my bf right now Shrugs.

mood weird

satsuki @ 10:27 PM | Random, Relationships, Personal [4 comment/s]

November 11th, 2009

Sugal

Noong nag-aaral pa ako sa College, natutunan ko sa aking klase na Finance ang mga katagang "calculated risk". In simple terms, ito yung pagsusugal at pagpusta sa llamado. Yung pagsabak sa giyera na may malaking chance na manalo ka.

Kung iisipin mo, lahat ng ginagawa natin ay sugal. Yun pagtawid mo sa kalsada, kung kakain ka ba o matutulog na lang, yun desisyon kung papasok ka ba sa skul o maglalaro ka na lang ng dota, pati yung pagsisimula ng negosyo, lahat yan sugal sa buhay.

Maka ilang beses na rin ako sumugal sa buhay ko. kadalasan, talo. yun nga ang sabi sa statistics, 9 out of 10 businesses ay nagsasara, totoo yun. Pero that does not stop you on trying. e pano kung eto na yung 10% na chance mo para mag succeed, dapat hindi mo palampasin.

Merong panahon sa buhay ko na kinailangan ko ng pera, syempre nangutang ako sa mga kakilala ko. hindi ko nga alam kung natatandaan pa nila na may utang ako sa kanila. Ginamit ko yung pera na yun pansugal. Ang problema, hindi ko ginamitan ng computation for calculated risk. hindi ko pa kasi natutunan yun nun panahon na yun. nun pinag-aralan ko yun endeavor, lumalabas na 1out of 89,785,745,416 ang chance ko na mag succeed. huli na ang lahat nung nalaman ko yun. at hanggang ngayon, hindi ko pa rin sila nababayaran.

maxterspade12ph @ 11:41 PM | Negosyo [5 comment/s]

misc

Finished IC presentation today. Thank gawd it went "well"--we were one of two groups that the professor said "well done"

Still got so much to do. Marketing quiz on Sunday.

I didn't do so well on the advertising quiz on Monday. It was hard. -_-

Ugh.

mood tired

satsuki @ 09:03 PM | Random, School/Work [Add comment/s]

"I" (by Samuel Ock)

Why cant I do anything
Anything for you
I say that I love you so
Still Im not see-through

Oh, my Lord why must I be
Loving me so selfishly?
Jesus died and made me whole
Yet I dont live for thee

Why cant I just listen close
Closely to your words
In one ear and out it goes
and I speak absurd

God, you pick me up again
Fallen, beaten, bruised in sin
Then I turn my back again
Doing what I choose

Lord, your glory fills the earth
More than thoughts can say
Still I spit right in your face
Still I act okay

Lover of us sinners, you
Ate and broke your bread
We deserved to live your pain
But you still died instead

 

---

.... I'm so sorry. So sorry. Why oh why do I keep hurting you?

deeflores @ 12:17 PM | Personal [Add comment/s]

They had every right

I remember those times when I've always had my fists up ready to shut up the people who are ready to take me down. It seems so far, but I'm not that much wiser or older from where I was. I am at a point in my life where God is becoming more real in every single thing that I do. And slowly, that is transforming my fists into open palm stretched out to surrender.

I'm still making this work in my life. Everyday, God teaches me something that breaks me. He uses painful experiences, struggles within the ministries, and other people to point out what I'm doing wrong. It drains me and makes me cry so hard. Still sometimes I put my fist up until I realize I am stopping God working in me. I am preventing God to shape me to a person that I'm supposed to be.

God maybe using someone to correct me not to hurt me purposely, but to beautifully change me. I used to think that other people don't have the right to call me such and such... but they, the godly Christian people, did and they still do. Because that's when God talks to me. And God has every right to anything.

deeflores @ 12:10 AM | Personal [Add comment/s]

November 10th, 2009

Still Thankful

Nagshopping kami ni Ate sa Greenhills kanina Mr. T! Together with Emo. Wala, nagwaldas na naman ng pera. Yun lang. Para may update lang kahit papano. Kasi miss na kita Mr. T! Gusto ko magdrama pero napapagod na ko. Kagabi hindi ako masyadong makatulog. Salamat sa mga malalapit kong kaibigan at kinausap nila ko despite ng kagagahan ko. Salamat salamat. Marami pa kong dapat ipagpasalamat. Napapareflect ako kanina habang papunta at pauwi galing trabaho, marami talagang dapat ipagpasalamat. 

At yung cellphones ko parang walang mga silbi. Hahaha! Parang pandisplay lang. Hahaha! Puro utos ng nanay, at mga kapatid ko ang nasa inbox. Kaya yung IMMORTAL10 ko nung Friday last week, buhay pa! Hindi pa ubos! O di ba?

Ano pa ba... hmmm... yung lang muna Mr. T! Yung wishlist ko grabe hindi talaga ko makaisip eh. Saka na siguro pag may pumasok na sa utak ko. Update you soon Mr. T!

mood sleepy
read Chris' YM Window

subtlebliss @ 10:14 PM | Everyday Drama [Add comment/s]

November 9th, 2009

Negosyo na

I really really really really wanted to start a business now. May concept na ako. Alam ko na kung sino ang mga empleyado ko, pero hindi ko masimulan dahil number 1: wala akong puhunan. number 2: hindi ko pa nakakausap ang mga taong involved.

Gusto ko isang restaurant na simple lang ang concept. walang eklavu, hindi siya karenderia, at hindi rin aircon.

Gusto ko meron akong parking space. kasya ang hanggang apat na sasakyan.

Gusto ko, operating hours ay mula 9am til 9pm.

Gusto ko malapit lang sa bahay namin ang location.

 

Makakabuo kaya ako ng puhunan sa pasko? Habang onti pa lang ang inaanak ko na bibigyan sa Pasko.

Para naman magamit ko ang pinag-aralan ko sa college at its fullest.

Help me Lord/

maxterspade12ph @ 06:50 PM | Personal Development [Add comment/s]

November 8th, 2009

Rhitz @ 24

Yesterday, sobrang saya. November 4 birthday ni Rhitz pero yesterday kami nagcelebrate. Together with Benson, Barry and Rhitz, nagcelebrate kami ng birthday ni Rhitz sa Century Park Hotel. Yep, eat-all-you-can. Ako ata nagsuggest na dun kumain since dun ang may pinakamasarap na sashimi. Wahehehe! Ayun, late ako. Silang tatlo nauna na. Kwentuhan, usapan. Then dumaan ng BHS naglakad lakad. Then tumuloy sa Antipolo para mag-inuman. O di ba ang saya? Ayun, maiksi lang entry ko dahil inaantok na ko. Baka mapadrama lang ako pag humaba to. I’ll cut it short na lang.

Ayun. Ayan mga pics. Shet parang walang kwenta tong entry na toh. Nakakatawa kasi sabi ni Rhitz hindi niya raw gusto regalo namin sa kanya ni Barry. Same pa kami ng binili ni Barry dahil nag Galleria kami nung Friday. Hahaha! Well sabi niya, Mark and Spencers naman and nanggaling sa min kaya naappreciate niya raw regalo namin. Hahahaha! Halatang wala ako sa mood magblog. Wah… update you soon Mr. T!

P.S. 1 week na lang pala birthday ko na. Wala pa rin akong nagagawang wishlist…

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mood weird
read Jeffrey's YM window
watch Rihanna's 20/20 Interview

subtlebliss @ 11:22 PM | Everyday Drama, Food and Dining [2 comment/s]